I already wrote one entry today about my visit to Dr. Grindel. It was a frustrated angry screed about the driver of the truck.
But I got a text from a friend who I'm visiting this weekend about perspective. So I took down the post and writing this instead. I kept the screed as a reminder of a bottom point. But now I'm okay.
Here's the news: Grindel said I need to wear the sling with a cushion for another four weeks.
In another eight weeks, so three months from today in September, I can start full on strength training.
In the coming four weeks, I should take the sling off often during the day to stretch and move the shoulder. I should do several passive movments to stretch including putting my arm on a kitchen counter and moving my body away from it to relax it.
In the following two months, I can do more therapy and begin to put my hand on my bike handlebars inside on the trainer.
The planned July 5 "comeback" race in Eau Claire at the Firecracker mountain bike race is off for me. Grindel said, "no, no way."
"That's a serious no way?"
He did show me some of the radiology of the operation. I didn't understand any of it, but saw what a rotator cuff shouldn't look like (it was all frayed like a disintegrating rope); a dissolvable half hook thing that looks like a curtain holder, used to hold other tissue in the labrum (the cartilage around your shoulder) together.
He also showed me the tunnels he dug with a "crochet needle" into which he sutured the bone back into place.
So now I'm left with an uncertain summer. I'm working part-time for Crankdaddy's, which will be awesome. I'm writing poetry and a book proposal and article about teaching. I'll continue to train and do therapy as hard and often as I can. And finally I'll do some traveling about the state, particularly up to Eau Claire and my parents' cabin.
I knew there would be rough moments in the recovery. And this was certainly the worst so far.
My potential comebacks are now:
Aug. 2 Crystal Ridge mountain bike race
Aug. 9 state time trial
Aug. 16 River Falls mountain bike race
Aug. 30 Suamico mountain bike race
But now I'm off to see Kim the wonderful physical therapist.